Misses

I miss being happy and positive...

It Will Rain...

If you plan to catch the baby-making and baby-delivery scenes of Breaking Dawn: Part 1 (Twilight series) in the cinema, don't! It's censored... Or you can always watch in the cinema, then go Google the scenes online.

Lyrics Credit: http://www.metrolyrics.com/it-will-rain-lyrics-bruno-mars.html

If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.

There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor,
oh So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walking out the door.

Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain

I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Saying there goes my little girl walking with that troublesome guy

But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Oooh well little darling watch me change their minds
Yea for you I'll try, I'll try, I'll try I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding If that'll make you mine

Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain

Ooooh Don't you say goodbye, don't just say, goodbye
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding If that'll make it right

Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain...

How To..?

* Up my confidence level, in all aspects life and self?
* Up my value of self-esteem?
* Say "No" and be firm about it, yet not offending or disappointing anyone on purpose, unless they deserve it?
* Be nice and not be used?
* Be / feel more worthy / good enough?
* Umm.. maybe adopt the following attitude: "Don't like me? Cool, I don't wake up everyday to impress you."

Sigh, never thought these kinda things still troubles me.
I guess I am really going through some kinda quarter-life crisis.
Oh blimey!!

1 Year

It has been 1 year since my family lost our beloved Pa.
The pain and sadness is still very much felt, as if it just happened yesterday.
Haih, miss having him around... whether it's talking about sports with him, or work... even if he nag...
Wished he was around (w/o the pain of cancer of course)

Well, glad though, that's all's well at home thus far
At least we (I) tried too maintain that...

-15.11.2011-

So Near

I was this close to getting myself admitted to hospital...

I wonder why the sudden fall?
The rain??
Food poisoning??

One of the most torturous night ever...
* Bloated stomach
* Vomitting
* Diarrhea
* High fever
* Shivers / Trembling
* Cold Sweat

29.10.2011